There’s something about me.
I’m Joshua Bae and I’m an average asian kid. Not really asian, but I’d say I’m just an average kid. I don’t have any specific gifts. People say that I can “sing” but in all honestly I’m really not that good at singing, my voice is just average. It will never get me anywhere. People always think I am smart, but in education I’m WAY below average. Then, people KNOW that I can never be athletic. There is nothing I am extraordinary in. I don’t stick out much with the abilities I have, I’m just really….average. But even though I’m average I can’t help but think that there is something about me. I’m not trying to be cocky or anything, but there’s something about me that makes me want to keep moving foward. I lack in any kind of talent, but there’s just something about me that makes me think that I am going to change the world. Maybe its just a dream that won’t come true, but I always tell myself that I am really ordinary and there’s nothing I have to offer to the world. However….this thought keeps coming back saying Josh you can do it, you can change the world. I really don’t know why, because every time I believe in what my heart says, I’m scared to be disappointed, I mean seriously… Change the world? Not even America, but the WORLD?!?! what the fuck. No one really can do that…I’m not a good guy, I’m not inspirational, I really dont have any charisma. WHY DOES THIS KEEP BUGGING ME??? Can I really do it? There’s nothing I can do to offer to the world, so I should just stop dreaming that dream, but I can’t. Its stuck to me, and I have this mentality that I will become well known throughout the world and people will see me as a role model, and I will do the right things to slowly point the world in a right direction. But what makes it even more unlikely is that I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I”M GONNA CHANGE THE WORLD. Music? YEA RIGHT. I have no music abilities what so ever. People say all this shit about me being good, BUT NO, I’m NO where close to being good NO WHERE. I have no chance in the music world. Politics? pshhhh. I’m a fucking retard. Who wants a retard to be a leader? What am I supposed to do…. So many unanswered question, and the only way for them to be answered is for me to keep living, and who know what will happen. But for now I’m gonna keep telling myself. “My name is Joshua Bae and I’m going to make a difference in the world. “
